I left a job that was killing me. I had a good salary, travel, and benefits. I didn’t know what I would do next. But I did know that I could not stay. It was killing me.
I got a new job. The work was repetitive and I was overqualified.
It was perfect. That new job helped heal my mind.
Sia helped heal my soul. I would go to the gym and listen to these songs on repeat.
Sia – Alive
Lyrics
I had a one-way ticket to a place where all the demons go Where the wind don't change And nothing in the ground can ever grow No hope, just lies And you're taught to cry into your pillow But I survived I'm still breathing, I'm still breathing I'm still breathing, I'm still breathing I'm alive I'm alive I'm alive I'm alive
I was alive. I had left a job that was destroying me. I had been a gifted kid, an overachiever. But I was so broken and broken down that I had no dreams or goals anymore.
And yet, that was ok. I was still breathing. I was alive.
Sia – The Greatest ft. Kendrick Lamar
Lyrics
Uh-oh, running out of breath, but I Oh, I, I got stamina Uh-oh, running now, I close my eyes Well, oh, I got stamina And uh-oh, I see another mountain to climb But I, I, I got stamina Uh-oh, I need another lover, be mine Cause I, I, I got stamina Don't give up, I won't give up Don't give up, no no no Don't give up, I won't give up Don't give up, no no no I'm free to be the greatest, I'm alive I'm free to be the greatest here tonight, the greatest The greatest, the greatest alive The greatest, the greatest alive
I had slowly given up. Like many of us with ADHD, I was a natural dreamer. But dreaming had become too painful. It hurt too much to be filled with ideas and possibilities when my day-to-day continuously proved that I couldn’t do anything.
But then I did something. I left my job. I was running out of breath, but I kept breathing. It made me hope that maybe I had stamina.
I felt kinship with Sia and proclaimed her words as my own. Sia gave me enough hope to say, “Don’t give up, I won’t give up. I’m free to be the greatest.” Because…I was alive.
Sia – Unstoppable
Lyrics
All smiles, I know what it takes to fool this town I'll do it 'til the sun goes down and all through the night time Oh yeah Oh yeah, I'll tell you what you wanna hear Leave my sunglasses on while I shed a tear It's never the right time Yeah, yeah I put my armor on, show you how strong how I am I put my armor on, I'll show you that I am I'm unstoppable I'm a Porsche with no brakes I'm invincible Yeah, I win every single game I'm so powerful I don't need batteries to play I'm so confident Yeah, I'm unstoppable today Unstoppable today Unstoppable today Unstoppable today I'm unstoppable today
I could put on armor, know the hurt and fear that was underneath, and still fight. I didn’t have to be fixed to be unstoppable.
What songs on repeat could help you heal or give you hope?
